it's all about 25th June 2011, it was the first time i had a
Birthday in a hospital. Not too bad i think.., but because it was on a
hospital.., almost no one came to see me on my 17th birhtday.., there's
just my brother and my parents included me on my room..
right
in 00.00 am exactly in the midnight, they turn off the light, i think
it was natural, but not.. my sister did it. they come sneaky to my room
at the eighth floor so i can't hear their voices.. suddenly.. they
shocked me out by saying "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" in front of my bed.. and then
they laugh over me while i'm still shocked in the bed.. hahaha...
they
got a cake in their hand.. so after it we celebrate my birthday.. i've
got my wished.. then we eat the cake together with my family and some
nurses. *nurse? where they came from?
right in the
afternoon, i was just alone again.., really alone without no one in my
side.. i wish someone that i hope to come can come right now and say
happy birthday to me.. but it's not happened. i just alone untill
evening.. stare at the room sky.. dreaming and getting bored..
suddently... my new hp ringing beside my head...
it was my schoolmate, mala...
i'm
not really hope that she call me and say happy birthday, but she did
it, thanks. i think it was the end of our conversation, but she said
"there's someone who wanna said happy birthday too to me!". i'm not too
think about it and just say "yeaah!" because i'm in the middle of highly
bored place and time. i turn to smile and really happy after say a girl
voice, a little bit shy.. but i know it's she.. my heart beat so fast
and just stay shut up until she said "Happy Birthday ya Kah, Moga cepat
sembuh dan sehat selalu". i still remember the voice when she said that
to me.. i'm really happy in that time.. so i say "makasih ya Ny" and
then stay calm again without saying nothing.. i hear some people voices
from the phone.. their laughing so loud.. and then i smile alone with a
red happy face in the bored room....
night has come, i almost sleep.. but i can't sleep because there's something i wanna do before i sleep..
it's
something that i wanna do almost one years ago.. suddently, i'm feeling
brave.. i send a sms, to say that i have a feel to the girl that i
wanna she come today. i know that my brave s not enough, so i just send a
sms, not call her. i'm waiting for the reply but there's nothing.
then
i wake up in the morning and open my hp, there's a reply from her.. i
was to happy.. but the reply was broken. so without wasting my time, i
ask her to send it again because the last was broken one. she send it
again and finally i read it.. i'm so happy and cannot say anything
because the answer is the same like i do.
hahaaaai.... cyayyacyacyayaaa \( ^____^")a
but now it's already changed. her feeling was gone.
then finally i'm just alone and hold this feeling alone.
